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Hey fellow nursing colleagues. My father passed away on Saturday. It was a rapid decline as in a week and then he passed. In the end of his life my family chose to do home hospice. None of my other family members are in healthcare so I did most of the nursing related care (meds, bathroom, shower) etc. I was so fortunate to be able to care for my dad in that way in his last days. I'm going back to work in a few days and am struggling with it. I know death is hard to cope with already. I guess the thought of taking care of someone after all that just puts me in tears. I can't take more time off work due to me currently working on a contract and I need the income. Do I sound ridiculous? Does anyone have any suggestions or coping mechanisms to help me get through my shifts? Has anyone else been through a similar circumstance? Thank you