SunDevil18

Hi all, I've been a med-surg/tele nurse for the past 2.5 years before transferring to my hospital's ICU. I will have been there 3 months next week. They had me at first orient on nights and then days the past few shifts but overall I had education/Ecco modules and shifts (26 so far) during my orientation. Initially (3 weeks ago) they wanted to extend my orientation but I had a meeting with my supervisor, preceptor and nurse educator yesterday and they said I'm not meeting expectations. They told me they hoped I'd improve more within the last few weeks and I thought I did but they said I'm not critically thinking still, I make mistakes (I learn from them but they expect me to make none), my preceptor has to prompt me to recognize changes in my patient(s) sometimes, and that I'm still not great at prioritizing. If I stay for the next 2-3 weeks but won't meet expectations again they could fire me. They literally told me. I have a meeting in a few days now with my manager and supervisor to let them know what I decide to do. Option 1 would be to stay and see if I can meet expectations then. But that's risky and I could get fired from my hospital and overall I like my hospital. Option 2 would be to leave/go back to my old unit or ask them to go to a different unit. I was thinking of asking them to try ED. I loved my old floor but going back there I'd feel like such a loser. Let's be real. I'm extremely disappointed in myself and feel like I let myself down and my family and friends who were all rooting and believing in me. But I also feel kinda blindsided by the unit because they never told me they expected me to make certain progress by a certain date before. My dream was always to go to ICU and I never thought I'd get told that I'm not cut out for it.