LisbethRN

Dear all, Where do I start? I feel like such a failure as a nurse. I have been working in a hospice for 10 mths, and, committed 4 medication errors - 1 during probation and 3 on my own. We are using paper MARS, and, no matter how careful I am, I keep making mistakes. I was previously from a hospital that uses EMR. I'm not saying that it was fool proof, but, it certainly helped a lot. I've never committed any med error until I came to this hospice. I am in danger of losing my job. The DON has "counselled" me about every med error, and, said that I am a ticking time-bomb. I love hospice care, but, can't seem to get my meds right. My former preceptor has stopped talking to me (a senior said the management probably instructed her to distance herself from me). I do not have a mentor. I feel humiliated, isolated, and, I know that everyone doesn't trust me to serve meds. I am feeling so depressed and am on the verge of tendering resignation. They might ask me to tender anyway... But, I am completely self-supportive with no family to fall back on. I want to keep this job, but, don't know how.