nishab05

I haven't always wanted to be a Nurse. I have a BS in Health Studies and have worked as a caregiver in the past (working with the disabled and elderly population), which I loved. I wanted to pursue an MPH, but decided Nursing might be better. I love Science (hate Math, but I'm decent at it). I've always been passionate about Public Health, but realistically, they want experience that I don't have. Even now, I can't find a job (I recently graduated in December) in my field, with me wanting to be a Health Educator. I have been slightly depressed lately because, during my internship, my Preceptor told me that 'nothing would change' (as in fighting a losing battle) going into Health Education. I want to change someone's life so that I can SEE it and feel it. I feel like I have many qualities of a nurse like empathy, interpersonal skills, physically strong and communication skills. I also consider myself a 'healer'. Weakness: sometimes my physical energy wears out easily if I'm drained with too many people around (introvert), I am sometimes too laid back. At times, I am worried that I am not 'smart' enough because I'm not great at math. Or that I am not good enough at problem solving. Or that 12 hour shifts will just be too much for me. I'm scared I won't like it because I hear other people say it. I'm riddled with self-doubt, especially because I haven't been able to put my degree into use. I know that I can become a Public Health Nurse or even a Nurse Educator, I think I would love doing that. It's just the initial criteria of being a Nurse. I want the job stability, experience, knowledge, and to actually SEE a difference in someone's life. I'm just not sure if this is the route I should go. Any advice would be helpful!!!