Don't feel bad... you picked a field that has so many other options. when I graduated I was dead set on working in a hospital; and I loved it; but it didn't last long; and I got cut from that spot. I've been at nursing homes ever since; and I didn't want anything to do with working in long term care; so I was crushed when it seemed that was my only options for jobs. now ten years later; I know life was getting me ready to take care of my dad now that he has dementia. again not what I saw myself doing in the future; but such is life; if you feel that horrible about going to your job; then follow your heart; and you will probably find the job you're meant to be doing. you worked hard to get where you are; don't settle for less that happy.