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I am a student in a four year BSN program at a top ten program in the U.S. I am currently about to finish my second semester but I have a lot of reservations if nursing is the right major/field for me. I applied to nursing school fresh out of high school on a whim because my parents wanted me to, and also they had stressed the medical field to me since the day I was born. I initially wanted to study business, communications, or go into teaching, but my parents who are in each field respectively, discouraged this as I was "too nice for business" or "teaching isn't enough income". Fast forward and I have contemplated dropping out of nursing school for the past four semesters. I have clinical experience with my program, but I find that I absolutely dread clinical shifts, want to go home every second of the day, and find myself reluctant to do bed-side care. Furthermore, I find myself uninterested in my actual nursing lectures and classes, I don't have the drive to learn but only to memorize quickly to pass, and move on. I have passed my classes with Bs or higher, but this semester, no matter how much I study the material nothing sticks and I am in jeopardy of academic probation. At this point, I am only driven to stay in nursing as it has cost me close to $30K and two years and I am halfway done. I doubt I can pass the NCLEX which my school requires, and my only shred of hope is that I like my pediatrics rotation, which is my absolute last semester, but if I do not then its 4 years and $60K wasted. I have only really stayed at the insistence of my family as I am being lazy and dramatic about my uncertainty and drive and a part of me wonders if this is true and I have not dropped out yet as I do not want to be a failure, disappointment, or embarrassment to my parents. I am also 100% dependent on my parents and I am afraid of the repercussions of even approaching the subject again. Can any nurses or even students give their absolute honest opinion or advice on this?

I am a student in a four year BSN program at a top ten program in the U.S. I am currently about to finish my second semester but I have a lot of reservations if nursing is the right major/field for me. I applied to nursing school fresh out of high school on a whim because my parents wanted me to, and also they had stressed the medical field to me since the day I was born. I initially wanted to study business, communications, or go into teaching, but my parents who are in each field respectively, discouraged this as I was "too nice for business" or "teaching isn't enough income". Fast forward and I have contemplated dropping out of nursing school for the past four semesters. I have clinical experience with my program, but I find that I absolutely dread clinical shifts, want to go home every second of the day, and find myself reluctant to do bed-side care. Furthermore, I find myself uninterested in my actual nursing lectures and classes, I don't have the drive to learn but only to memorize quickly to pass, and move on. I have passed my classes with Bs or higher, but this semester, no matter how much I study the material nothing sticks and I am in jeopardy of academic probation. At this point, I am only driven to stay in nursing as it has cost me close to $30K and two years and I am halfway done. I doubt I can pass the NCLEX which my school requires, and my only shred of hope is that I like my pediatrics rotation, which is my absolute last semester, but if I do not then its 4 years and $60K wasted. I have only really stayed at the insistence of my family as I am being lazy and dramatic about my uncertainty and drive and a part of me wonders if this is true and I have not dropped out yet as I do not want to be a failure, disappointment, or embarrassment to my parents. I am also 100% dependent on my parents and I am afraid of the repercussions of even approaching the subject again. Can any nurses or even students give their absolute honest opinion or advice on this?