kjrn10

I've been a nurse for what will be five years in May, and I have to say I never imagined at this point I'd be feeling the way I do. In the past five years I've held multiple types of nursing jobs. I've worked on a med/surg-oncology unit, I tried hospice, and am now doing home health care. And for some reason I feel like I should know more than I do..being a nurse I constantly have friends/family (or even my patients) asking me about symptoms or medications and I never feel like I can give a confident answer. Or when I have conversations with friends of mine who are nurses some longer than me and some not as long, I feel so insecure i our conversations sometimes because they are spewing out terms and meds that I'm not familiar with or don't remember, and I feel like these are things I should know. I didnt expect to graduate nursing school and know everything but I felt like after almost five years I'd have a better knowledge base and feel more comfortable as a nurse. Part of me thinks it's because most jobs I've onlg stayed in for a year or two and then I've moved on, so maybe I'm not giving myself enough time in each area. I am currently pretty unhappy in my home health job, and plan on searching for new employment after I am finished my maternity leave (26 weeks along right now). I don't feel home health is for me, I've been here for 2.5 years but miss the hospital setting. Maybe I haven't found my niche yet and this is why I feel like this..because I still don't really feel like I've found a place in nursing where I feel like this is it, this is what I was meant to do.. any suggestions, thoughts, or similar stories are appreciated!