nurse3847

I really need some help and advise. I made a pretty serious medication error 2 years ago, I was 3 months off of orientation at my first job in the ER, and didn't tell anyone and I documented that it was given as directed. I have been haunted with this mistake since it happened. I wish everyday that I could go back to that day and do things different. I really want to make things right, I want to make things right for the patient, and myself so that I can move on and start fresh. I know this means that I will probably lose my license. I can not keep living in a state of anxiety, and depression. I don't even know where to start in this process. Should I contact an attorney, or should I contact my state Bord of Nursing? Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Where did you start? I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place, and have been seriously depressed, like no matter what I do in this situation (not report the mistake stay depressed or worse, report it get in trouble, lose my license go to jail, lose my family or worse). It just feels like an impossible situation. PLEASE HELP!!!