aspirational_

Hello all! I am writing this because I am terrified, but still want to become a great nurse... I apologize ahead of time for the anxiety in this post. I am in an accelerated one year program that started in June and have just finished the second/fall semester. The only classes I have left to take are Med Surg 2, Community, Transitions, and OB. During the summer, I had clinical on a med surg/tele floor and this semester had clinicals in peds, med surg, and psy. Although I put in a lot of effort and try very hard while juggling a lot of difficult life situations that I have been going through in the background, I feel very behind compared to my classmates.. and can't really tell if it's just in my head. I do volunteer to help out with anything I can during clinical, but feel that I have only dipped my feet in a couple of times.. having only been exposed to things like trach care once, having only assisted in changing a foley twice, and having only changed an IV bag by myself once. And I truly do not believe this is because I do nothing at clinical... it's just with the nurse I end up precepting, I mostly do vital signs and assist with administering medications. This terrifies me because I realize I am basically graduating in a few months - and cannot imagine being prepared to be a nurse on my own, when I barely have done the basic essentials by myself. It is winter break now and I am trying to figure out ways to prepare myself better - besides wanting to take even more advantage of every single clinical hour next semester and I don't really know what to do... I am using PassPoint to do practice questions and was going to brush up on old stuff by reading over past lectures/the Fundamentals/Med Surg textbook.. but I really don't know what to do. I just feel afraid.