heks

I completely understand where you stand. I have been a nurse for 5 years and I'm done with it. I struggle with enjoying work. I cry often, I have gotten to the point of wanting to get in my car and never come back. I'm constantly stressed, just thinking about going to work makes me extremely anxious and even angry at times. I wish my husband made enough money to support the household while I get my life sorted. I want to go back to school, but can't afford it. I think about quitting every day. I keep searching for transfers to another unit or another job or any other position. This is my second job, I have always been an ER nurse. I'm burnt out to the point of hating nursing in general. I can have a good shift and still be completely drained. I have tried just about anything to motivate myself, but can't shake this feeling of dread just thinking of going to work. I hate the staff, the demigod doctors, the manager...just everyone that I have to deal with every shift. I'm so done and I'm counting the days to finish my contract next September so I can do something else with my life. I have been sick for months, and between panic attacks, anxiety and physical pain, I just don't think I can endure this much longer. Im a certified vet assistant but that doesn't pay the bills so not even an option at this point. I wish I could just go into an office job, more like a consultant or an easier 8 hr shift job. Just need to stop feeling like I'm drowning. I wish you the best of luck. Its not easy feeling like you are throwing your education away. As I'm planning to do with my life, I would recommend you a change of setting and/or career. Its the best thing you can do for yourself.