TiffanyB1313

Thanks for all the input. IMCU is going extremely well. I know how to do everything and am able to think clearly. The only thing that sucks is the patient ratio. Manager said 2 to 3 but I've had 5 every night. I'm sure other places have more it's just alot to juggle when they're on the borderline of care status like kinda icu. I never really wanted to be an icu nurse my dream is to do trauma/emergency department. So I think I'll do this to get some skills and education on my belt then go try for what I really want. Thanks again.

So I'm a new nurse working in a 14 bed icu. I just graduated in May and started working there in late July. It was going well with my first preceptor on day shift training then I was assigned a new preceptor on midnights which is my assigned shift. And from the beginning she had an attitude with me which I just ignored because almost everyone there is mad because they just started hiring new grads and there is alot of jealousy because most of them had to start in a step down unit or med surg area. Understandable to be jealous just sucks they're taking it out on me. So with my preceptor on midnights like I said she always had a terrible attitude or gave me a stupid look when I asked a question. I had a question about the IV medication that had a warning on the pump that said it should be in a glass bottle and it wasn't she just sighed loudly and snapped it's fine! And hit submit. I got over that and then later she snapped on me for following her after she said to follow her to get the aid she yelled I should actually be doing something instead of following her. So I went to do an assessment on a patient and she said she heard my preceptor and said my co-workers should be nice and that I should like where I worked. I almost lost it I wanted to cry so bad. So the next day I asked to meet with my manager to switch preceptors and she some how ended up turning it around to where I was too slow for critical care and talking me into going to IMCU which I knew would happen because they didn't want new grads in Icu and they're super short in Imcu they need to hire like 10 nurses over there so I seen it coming. People were making up lies like saying I don't help out and I'm like....i definitely help. This nurse asked for help putting in a rectal tube and I was the only one who would volunteer. I could definitely feel the nurses eat their young. I am just so bummed and disappointed. I feel like a failure. I don't even want to show my face. I'm going to be known as the girl who couldn't handle Icu. I understand not having new grads in Icu I just wish I would have started in Imcu instead of icu so I didn't get demoted. It also hurts that nurses would lie about me to try to get me out. I was nice to everyone, listened, helped when needed, and brought in treats...i just don't get it. I feel like such a loser. I feel like I shouldn't be a nurse.... I also don't even think IMCU is for me....its not an area I ever thought to do nor have an interest in. But I love patients so I'll try... I just wanted to vent thanks for listening. Any advice is welcome