MC747

I graduated from a 2nd bachelors BSN, RN program Aug 2014. I have since then, taken the NCLEX exam 3 times, over a span of 3 years. After not passing for the 3rd time, I was mandated to take ATI Testing as remediation. I find the program to be extremely frustrating as you have to switch between two websites and wait on responses and assignments from ATI professors, as opposed to following a syllabus. Often times I find the responses to be days delayed and often, canned, "copy and paste" responses. I have renewed the program many times at $75 a pop for 12 weeks, MULTIPLE times. I would say this has been slowing my progress towards the NCLEX exam tremendously. For those that don't know, you must receive the, "green light" from your ATI professor first, before you are allowed to take the exam again after not passing 3 times. At least this is the rule in my state. To say the least, I am burned out emotionally, mentally, and in the, "self confidence" department. I obviously have something in me telling me after all these years to keep pursing this career, but I have had some people at this point tell me that even after I pass, I will be, "unhireable" since I have not been clinically active. This has been the most discouraging input of all. I do acknowledge that I have been out of the game clinically for a while (this is what they are referring to), but it does not mean I am incapable. I realize that my job prospects will most likely be limited after successful passing of the exam (maybe low-risk - nursing home, hospice, etc) but I still dream to work ER and more critical care departments. I don't need to be rah-rah cheered on if my story is black and white - job prospects may be low and out of school too long- but I would like to hear feedback on whether anyone has gone through the same and if there is hope on the other side. Also, I am hitting the level of ZERO motivation. I want it - I think about it - but I have stopped doing much to move forward in nursing, even though I want to. I feel utterly burned out....any help, tips, etc, would be most helpful. Thank you.