ALMED

Thank you all. I have spoken with my NM and we have decided I will switch to days and work again with a preceptor for at least another 3 weeks. The patient is doing well, he did have another seizure on days and his MD changed some of his meds. My NM also said she has had several complaints of us not working well as a team and plans to address that. I have also realized that when school ended I quit hitting the books forgetting that nursing (and life) are a constant learning experience. Since then I have come home and looked up everything I did not understand, and will continue to do so. This has taught me a very valuable lesson, I will never again put anything ahead of the patient. God bless you all.

I'm so ashamed, I can't sleep, eat or think of anything else. I'm a new RN, passed my boards in July and have been working nights since. I started that night on the wrong foot taking that room in the first place, B bed was my son-in-law's father, I'm not even sure the policy on taking people I know, I just knew he would be more comfortable with a familiar face. But that's not the problem, the gentleman in A bed was suffering from ETOH W/D, had a seizure that I witnessed near the end of my shift, and what did I do? nothing, tucked him in and left the room. That is so out of character for me (or so I thought). I was faced with a crisis, I did not know what to do, so instead of asking for help, I ignored it! My stomach is flipping thinking about it. Maybe hospital nursing isn't for me, maybe LTC is so I can send them to a hospital when thing happen. Maybe it's the shift, I am not myself at home either, not smiling, being grouchy. I just don't know. I do not trust myself right now. Any advice??