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Thank you so much, I'm so happy to hear that I'm not alone!!! ❤️❤️❤️

Today was my first official orientation day working on the floor. It was a disaster. I'm a nursing student with funds and med surg experience, so I never went through PCT school but I thought I knew enough to be good at my job... Long story short I majorly SUCKED today... I couldn't do anything right. I couldn't even take a set of vitals without forgetting to do something every single time. I'd either be fumbling with the long cords getting wrapped in everything, meanwhile taking my sweet time, or I would forget to do respiration's, how do I forget that?! And the girl training me looked like she wanted to laugh and strangle me at the same time. in addition to the vitals I was slow to put on my PPE, hand washing, charting, etc. I felt like I was trying to nail jello to a wall meanwhile my PCT trainer ran laps around me. Not only that but my patients didn't seem to like me but they loved the other person training me. I can be a little socially awkward but I believe I am a compassionate person. I've always dreamed of working in a big hospital taking care of others, being that hero to make someone's day a little easier during a tough time, but now I feel like a failure, and an incompetent moron. I gained a little more confidence towards the end of the day, did some patient teaching like we were trained to do in my hospital, and got told off by a patients caregiver who also said she hopes to not see me here again. I ended my shift by crying my eyes out in my car for a good 20 minutes. I'm worried that I'll just suck as a pct/nurse. I graduate next year and I don't want to think this is how I'll always feel.

Hi all! I am finishing up my junior year of my BSN and recently have been offered a positon as a PCT in the ICU. I was filling out my physical questionnaire when I saw "Do you have add - yes or no" I hesitated for a while - but ended up circling yes. I thought it would be best to be upfront since I was recently diagnosed a few months ago. I also figured it would be discrimination to disqualify someone for that. Then at the bottom of the page I saw boxes for only the physician to check that said "qualified, or unqualified." My heart sank. I am so worried that I will get a call from HR saying I am not fit for this position. Did I make a wrong move for being honest? Can I be let go because of my ADHD?

So I have always had anxiety. It's followed me my whole life, including ADD and I feel it's possible for some sort of slight autism... long story short I am in my second year of nursing school, currently in med-surg. I get slightly anxious when passing meds specifically heparin injections, mostly because my clinical instructor can be so intimidating. I didn't think I was doing so bad until my instructor pulled me aside today and told me how horrible I'm doing and how she will not be giving me the opportunity to visit the OR like she is allowing my other classmates to do this clinical. She told me she doesn't trust me because I have no confidence. I am very concerned that this issue will follow me throughout my career and that I'll either be a horrible nurse or be terminated for making mistakes and being so nervous all the time. Am I alone in this, is there anyone else who has made mistakes and felt this way or am I just really stupid.... 😔 Please no harsh comments I'm feeling low enough, hoping it's not just me.