Tempest626

Thank you for your comment! Sadly my degrees are a bit useless (A BA in creative writing, Masters in English and Communication and a Masters in teaching). I just graduated this past semester and I have not had my own classroom yet. I had a feeling it was the wrong place for me from day one but I did not think I had any other options. I figured I would suffer through it and hope it would grown on me, it didn't, I feel no pride or connection to the profession and sitting in a room of teacher-candidates makes me feel like a liar because these people really WANT this and I just do not. I did it because the program was there and I was already enrolled at the school. I wanted to be a college professor and I figured that my love of books and learning would translate to the secondary classroom (it doesn't). Can I ask what made you want to go to nursing school?

I can't stop thinking about becoming a nurse, but this is insane for a few reasons and I can't talk to any of my friends or family about this, so here I am, begging for advice from those who might understand. First, the reasons that this impulse to be a nurse is totally insane: I am 30 years old, I already have three degrees (a bachelors and two masters), I just spent two years going through a difficult and demanding program to become an English teacher, I am in debt and the whole reason I went into the teaching program was so I could get a job right away and start earning some real money, my family already thinks I'm a direction-less child that can't seem to get out of school and do anything productive, I can no longer get any kind of fin aid, I am supposed to be looking for a teaching job, I feel like I am way to OLD to be doing this! The reasons I want to be a nurse: I love taking care of people; for as long as I can remember I have had this impulse to take care of everyone (sometimes to the point of ignoring myself); While doing my student teaching one of the students hurt her knee and came into the classroom in a wheelchair, the few minutes I spent helping her in and out of the chair, and getting her foot propped up was more fulfilling (on a deep soul-searching level) than any time I spent at the front of the room teaching, I HATE teaching kids who would rather be on snapchat and who are 10000% clueless about the world around them; I feel like this world needs a lot of help and healing, I want to be part of that; I could travel and help people all over the world, The idea of going into the classroom everyday makes me want to jump off of something very tall, the idea of going to a hospital everyday sparks something deep inside of me that wants to learn everything and help everyone, The idea of going to a conference to learn about how to be a better teacher sounds deeply boring while going to a medical conference sounds like Disney World, I think I want to be a teacher for the wrong reasons, I think I want to be a nurse for the right reasons Sorry for the long post and I hope this shows a bit of my dilemma and please, any current nurses or nursing students, HELP! Am I crazy? Should I pursue this or should I just go be a teacher and stop thinking of all of the ways my life could have gone? Or am I finally figuring out what I really want?