xxbeatrix

Hello everyone, I am sure there are many posts about nursing school or nursing students and all and how hard it is. So forgive me if this isn't something new.. I just need someone to help me out. I haven't started nursing school yet but I got accepted and will be starting this fall. Since high school, I always busy working toward my goal to become a nurse. I went to college during my junior year of high school so I could get a step ahead. I was really ambitious and motivated. I even finished CNA program while I was doing running start. I started working as a CNA after I graduated from high school. Everything was going well, I was getting closer to my goal...got accepted into nursing school, had a job which pays well, and have support from family. After high school, I went to my grandparents house for summer and one day I was just talking with my grandpa about life, goals and etc. He asked me what I do in my free time? What are my hobbies? I don't know why but I just couldn't think of anything at that time... I still can't. I told him that I can't think of any. After around 5 minutes of silence, my grand pa told me that "it's nice you are getting ahead in life and thinking about future but don't forget to enjoy the present. When you try to control everything, you enjoy nothing." I didn't get what he was trying to say at that time but now that I think of it, I was missing out on lot of things. I realized that I was living up to my parent's expectations. My siblings all went to medical field and I thought if I didn't do the same then I won't be their favorite. I now know for sure that I don't want to do nursing because past two months.. I slowed down in life. I quit my job and went traveling by myself with the money I saved. I am currently learning different things and I am loving it. I don't know if I will dropout from nursing school or not because I am still trying to find what I love doing. I just wanted to let this out. Thank you for reading! have a good one!