Dramamama46

I am in the same predicament but i actually lost my license. I was fired so many times...never for my nursing work but for tardiness, arguments. I was working in a nursing home and was accused of not giving a patient her meds one night and i was called into the office the next morning. One of the managers started accusing me of taking the ativan since i had signed it out and the patient said she didnt get it. I was a great employee up until then and all it tiok was one complaint and they took the patients word against mine. I was so mad. I agreed to go do a drug test. My mind was racing of course and i drove about a quarter mile and impulsively just thought to myself "screw them im not working there anymore after the way they treated me i dont have to prove anything. I have never taken a benzo in my life but they reported me to the nursing board and i was automatically a drug abuser since i refused the test. I told them that my reasoning was that im takingthe test to keep my job and i didnt want my job so why take the test. People just dont understand how impulsivity poor coping and other adhd can really mess up your life. Alot of people think you just cant find your keys or get distracted easily. It seems like ive had many similar instances where i thought my behavior was reasonable and i get in trouble. a note to all the posters who say its our responsibilty to control it in the workplace...alot of people dont know they have it and think they are stupid or lazy and cant understand why they fail time and time again until they get that life changing diagnosis that explains the reason for all their troubles. By then your self esteem is usually shot and its hard to get back. You want to tell the world you have adhd and youre not just a loser but the stigma makes carefully choose who we tell. It would be a gift if society were different. I love my adhd but hate that nobody else does.