AmberDray

Thank you guys so much for replying, I appreciate almost every single reply except the one that says "I should probably make myself uglier". Which is exactly what I feared, I was wondering if this is what all nurses do to quell bullies. Why should I make myself worse to make someone happy?? That is unfair to me and I would never succeed in life. I understand allowing them to see that I am a human being with imperfections but I don't think I should make myself uglier. That was the direction I was going in a couple weeks ago but I felt it was unfair. Funny thing is, it's gotten a lot better, it's calmer in side the class and we are more use to this instructors teaching style. However, I know at some point in time I will be dealing with this again whether I am working or at another nursing program. I'm in lpn school by the way but I plan to become an RN. I know I will have to tackle this when it comes back up again. Essentially, I didn't deal with this the way how I wanted but the situation kind of calmed itself and I've forgotten about it. I'm sure one the girls will go through a stressful day and they will be looking for someone will start acting out of control again.

Thank you so much for your reply. I get upset at myself thinking about the situation which prompted me to come on here. I've been thinking about this for quite sometime and it really bothers me. I am wondering if it is worth the energy, sometimes my head hurts thinking about it. I'm wondering why am I sitting back and allowing these girls to treat me like this and I'm sure some of my classmates are wondering the same thing. I'm just hoping to God that when I do say something, I don't have diarrhea of the mouth and explode. I thought I left it behind in last semester but I was wrong. When I'm alone, I become furious about this, I haven't been this upset in a long time. One girl in particular will use her butt and bounce me away when we are all standing a line and get right in front of me and I told her I don't like that, I said "I think that is aggression and I don't like it" she laughs and then says it's a joke and continues to stand right in front of me. I'm in my last semester so I don't know if I should just let it go but I don't want to be remembered as the simp of the class.

This isn't a trap thread, I really am in this situation, I don't know if it's fear or anxiety that stops me from speaking up for myself. I agree, I do know how to be snippy but I seem to keep it bottled up all the time and when the time comes for me to let it out, I just get stuck. I don't know if it's fear but the words just won't come out. I forget everything I planned on saying and my heart starts beating really fast. I often get angry about how they treat me when I am alone but do nothing later on.

Why do you think I will hate it?

I am in nursing school by the way and I am not enjoying it, a large percentage of the girls are very ******. I've never seen girls behave this bad. Even my instructor is mean and it's mainly the less physically attractive students that behave like this too. It's like they need an excuse to feel better about themselves and No I am not perfect but I am pretty attractive. I only talk to my friends who seem to be getting along fine with the other girls and yes I am one of the youngest. It seems as if most of the girls in the class hate me for no reason and many are blatantly rude. I grew up in a household where it was impolite to talk back so I tend to be very reserved but reservation is not helping. I also sense a feeling of resentment towards me from the instructor, just from her tone of voice and the way she raises it when she speaks to me. My previous instructor had once said "you can't be afraid in nursing, you have to be ballsy" she didn't say it directly to me but I have been thinking about it ever since. I think I might have to get snappy with these girls and correct them when they make inappropriate comments (which I will have to learn how to do). One time I made a nice comment about a student and she quickly said "don't call my name" and I just stayed quite but they continue to make these rude comment even when I am not talking them. I never imagined being a snippy nurse because I assumed they were suppose to be quiet and nice. After observing the nurses who teach at my school, I realized that this is far from the truth and many seem unhappy and overworked, which would explain why they give so much homework. I am wondering if I should make a 360 degree turn with my personally, I am usually a fun and happy person who tries to see the best in things no matter what but I am wondering if I might have to change. I really like studying nursing but I am not liking the other students and they will become my future coworkers, I have to know how to deal with this.