switchflash07

Hey y'all, This is my first time posting on this forum so please be gentle on me. I will preemptively apologize for writing such a long post. I am trying to be as detailed as possible to get the best advice. I don't know anyone IRL who can help me with my nursing questions. Me: I am a 27 year old man trying to get his **** together and start on a path towards a career. History: I graduated from college in 2011 with a BA in Political Science and a 3.3 gpa. In 2015, I thought I wanted to be a doctor, so I went back to school and took some post-bac classes. I took out a Navient education loan for $10,145.75. Realizing that I only had 3 continuous semesters of federal loan eligibility for a non-degree granting program (the post-bac program gives a certificate), I stopped taking classes at the state school and started taking classes at a community college. Depressed, I got a W in General Chemistry II, a W in Calculus I, an Incomplete in Biology 2 and an F in Calculus I when I tried to retake it last semester. December 2016, I was diagnosed with ADHD and depression. I started taking medication for both shortly after. Now, I am taking Biology 2 over to remove the Incomplete grade and Anatomy for the first time. Goals:I was pre-med for so long that I never looked into any other fields. Last year I was introduced to CRNA field and it really captured my interest. I would like to be a CRNA for three main reasons: I want to work in the medical field in a capacity where I can help people but don't necessarily have to have direct patient interaction on a daily basis (I'm an introvert and I feel like most nurses are extroverted), I want a lot of autonomy (not a fan of dealing with a ton of different personalities and office politics), and I want a career that enables me to have a good work-life balance (something medicine could not provide). Questions: This is my first semester taking pre-nursing classes. If I can do well in my pre-nursing classes, do you think my academic blemishes as a pre-med will be forgiven when applying to a nursing program? Should I retake General Chemistry II and Calculus I over again before applying to a nursing program? Those classes aren't required for nursing school but it really makes my academic transcript look awful having those grades on it, especially recently. Should I apply to an ABSN or Masters in Nursing program when I am done with my prereqs? I prefer the ABSN option but I am worried that I will not be eligible for anymore federal loans since I used 10,000 of it in 2015 for post-bac classes. Will CRNA programs look at my subpar college grades or will they focus on nursing school grades? I know I need at least 1 year of ICU experience before applying to a CRNA program. I've heard that BSN enables more direct patient experience compared to a MSN which tends to be more case management and clinic driven. Is that true? Comments: I don't know what to do. Like I said, I'm 27 and I'm just now trying to transition into nursing. I know that 27 y/o isn't super old, but I'm worried that my past academic mistakes will hinder my ability to get into a good nursing program. I'm currently working two dead end jobs and taking classes and I feel like such a failure. I wish I had spend more time researching nursing when I was younger, I would have saved so much time. I'm currently taking Anatomy with a bunch of super driven women and I feel like a failure compared to them. Thanks for reading my long post. I'm hoping to get responses that can help me plan out what I need to do. Penultimately I want to be a CRNA but now, as a struggling college student with 10,000 in debt and poor academic performance, it seems like such a pipe dream.