kittenmittens

I don't even know where to begin I am very stressed out over this. So it is February 2017, I graduate from the RN program in a few months. In 2014, I was arrested for DUI with a high BAC. Not only that, but I crashed my car. Luckily, no one else was involved and I walked away with just bruises and a sore neck. I am now trying to get all of my NCLEX application documents together to submit to the BRN when graduation comes. Today I received my arrest report, and needless to say I am deeply embarrassed about what the cops had to say about my behavior, and the excruciating details of the accident. Before the field sobriety test, the cops had asked me if I had taken any medications or drugs, and I said yes, that I had taken Zoloft. (It was a new med to me at the time). Because of this, the officer suggested that I be charged with DUI of both drugs and alcohol. The drug charge was dropped and I was charged with misdemeanor DUI of alcohol. Recently, I applied to have my charge dismissed (expunged) and be released early from probation. To my surprise, those motions were granted. I have found a section in the 2017 California Nurse Practice Act that the BRN cannot deny licensure to someone who has had their charge dismissed pursuant to Penal Code 1203.4, which I have, unless that charge is substantially related to the profession of nursing. Considering that I have put the entire community at risk by choosing to drink, drive, AND crash my car, I feel that the BRN might say that my DUI is substantially related. I'd like to add a little back story as well. As much as I don't want to divulge this information, I think it is necessary that I be as open and honest as possible, especially since Zoloft is mentioned in the arrest report. Less than a year before the accident, I was placed on an involuntary psychiatric hold for 3 days for evaluation. I don't need to get into detail about it here, but I believe that my instability at the time played a huge role in my poor decision making the night of the accident (even though it was a year after the hospitalization). For about a year and a half after that hospitalization I still had severe anxiety, frequent manic episodes and poor judgment related to my diagnosis. I have been seeing a psychiatrist since I was 18 years old (25 now) and was misdiagnosed up until the hospitalization. I now take medication every day and have been stable for the last two years. I have spoken to a couple of lawyers about this. One told me that getting an expungement won't make a difference. Another told me to go to AA meetings but I won't need a sponsor. Here is where I am struggling to provide evidence of rehabilitation. I only went to a handful of meetings. I didn't feel like I needed help to quit drinking, because I am not a habitual drinker. I can go weeks without a drop of alcohol and not bat an eye. I chose to go to AA to hear other people's stories of alcoholism and how it has affected their lives. It was an eye opener to see how much alcoholism destroys families, jobs, relationships, dreams, goals, etc. Listening to others' stories, I still didn't see myself as an alcoholic. Rather than an issue of alcoholism, I felt I had an issue with poor judgment related to psychiatric issues and possibly a medication reaction. My psychiatric issues are now under control. After reading my arrest report, the question of whether I am chemical or alcohol dependent is going to be huge. I am very concerned. Not only will they see that I made a horrible choice involving alcohol, but I also have psychiatric issues. Double whammy. Should I just go ahead and admit to the board that I have an alcohol problem? (even though I don't believe it, that I think it was a lapse in judgment that will not happen again). Should I go ahead and find myself a sponsor from AA, even though well over two years has passed since the arrest? I wonder if anyone out there in California has had a DUI as severe as mine, applied for licensure and what their experience entailed? I would appreciate any useful information. Thank you.