angieb19

Hi everyone, I'm new to allnurses so I apologize in advance for any mishaps! I am a second-semester PN student from Ontario who is having difficulty coping with the stress as a nursing student. I was challenged by some of the content in my previous semester, but ended up doing great. I enjoyed my clinical placement because I was surrounded by very sweet, understanding staff. I am in my second clinical placement now, and I've completed about 10 morning shifts in total working in long term care. As a student, I am currently helping with toileting, bed making, feeding, showering and more. I work under a personal support worker who tells me what to do, and I have to do it on my own. I am having a hard time coping with clinical because I don't know what to expect with each resident. There are some who have threatened to hit me because they don't want to stop sleeping and when I go on to the next one I am scared to be assertive with them. At the end of my last shift, a staff member advised me to be more firm and I am having trouble implementing that. My instructor can't always be with me because there are many other students located across the facility. I am told that I have what it takes but I am terrified that I can't keep up. I have a history of anxiety and depression that was treated with medication ever since I hit puberty. I am currently 19 and went off my medication about 9 months ago, and I am thinking about going back on it because my performance at clinical is wearing at my strength. I forgot what it felt like to be this fragile. Is my ability to complete the work that I am doing in long term care reflective of my competency as a nurse?