Overstimulated

So the other night I had one of those nights.... The nights when you think I am here doing this for what, what was I thinking. I had a 25 weeker (5 days old) on HFOV and having diminished breath sounds and needed orders that should have been there and a near 25 weeker (25 days old) that was 2 days post PDA ligation and having frequent decels and desats with care and/or stimulation and needed new orders for a medication. There were so many things that I could tell were put aside by others because it could be done later that I had to have done now because I needed to. :angryfire:flmngmd::spbox: I felt like every time I wanted to do something I had to do something else. I was feeling like I could not get my thoughts straight or my self organized. I walked out of my shift 2 hours late and having to write an occurance report. As I walking out of the shift the day shift nurse was saying how she could not do this for all day and needed help when I just did that for 12 hours plus 2 hours extra 14 hours. I was so overstimulated and wanting to just have time to collect my thoughts and organize.

I walked out of my shift and walked over to the starbucks and got a chai tea latte and a coffee cake and sat in my car to process before I could leave. I told my family that I had a bad night they were sorry for me but did not understand but that was ok because they were there but I still did not get to sleep for hours.