I've been a nurse since 2004, have worked in several areas. Med surge,
acute care, telephonic nursing, hospice, home care. I took 2 years off
to stay home with my kids, and took another year to find another job. This put me out of the clinical setting for almost 4 years. In 2011, I decided I would go back to NP school and am now in my last semester. I decided to do an online program and found that with the online workload, having to do a thesis project, among numerous other school related obligations. I found myself feeling very inadequate when it comes to knowing and understanding content. I'm over 50, perimenopausal, feel I can't remember anything, I'm apprehensive and have very high levels of stress during clinical rotations. Everyone says you will get through this, and this I know, but just can't seem to shake this feeling of inadequacy. Being in an online program, I've found myself just studying exam-prep questions to pass the next test so I can move on. This is also due to the high level class demands, not to mention trying to have some sort of family life. I really feel sorry for my husband and kids, as I have no time to spend with them. Well, I will finish this program soon and wanted to know of any suggestions for 1st job. I was thinking of primary care, but am apprehensive because there again I feel so inadequate. I'm a type A personality and don't know how to handle this feeling. I really regret not taking the traditional route for the NP program. Ended up having to quit my job last year in order to travel for clinical, which has left me feeling even worse. I can continue to vent, but I will spare everyone the boring details of my life at this point. If anyone has any suggestions for passing the boards and looking for that 1st job, please feel free to comment.
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I've been a nurse since 2004, have worked in several areas. Med surge,
acute care, telephonic nursing, hospice, home care. I took 2 years off
to stay home with my kids, and took another year to find another job. This put me out of the clinical setting for almost 4 years. In 2011, I decided I would go back to NP school and am now in my last semester. I decided to do an online program and found that with the online workload, having to do a thesis project, among numerous other school related obligations. I found myself feeling very inadequate when it comes to knowing and understanding content. I'm over 50, perimenopausal, feel I can't remember anything, I'm apprehensive and have very high levels of stress during clinical rotations. Everyone says you will get through this, and this I know, but just can't seem to shake this feeling of inadequacy. Being in an online program, I've found myself just studying exam-prep questions to pass the next test so I can move on. This is also due to the high level class demands, not to mention trying to have some sort of family life. I really feel sorry for my husband and kids, as I have no time to spend with them. Well, I will finish this program soon and wanted to know of any suggestions for 1st job. I was thinking of primary care, but am apprehensive because there again I feel so inadequate. I'm a type A personality and don't know how to handle this feeling. I really regret not taking the traditional route for the NP program. Ended up having to quit my job last year in order to travel for clinical, which has left me feeling even worse. I can continue to vent, but I will spare everyone the boring details of my life at this point. If anyone has any suggestions for passing the boards and looking for that 1st job, please feel free to comment.