NCLEX-PN

For any nclex test taker out there I just wanted to share my story to maybe help someone out a little, the help that I didn't really receive. I graduated from nursing school in June 2015, took my nclex that same summer September 2015. My computer shut off at 85, which in my head I knew I pass because that's the main # everyone talks about for PN that means you passed. Welp, I was wrong.. I failed. I got my results back in the mail of what percentage I was in the topics and I was below in everything, which means I ended up failing pretty bad. I was devastated, beyond devastated actually. People from my class still kept in touch up to that point and everyone was passing with an 85 & I failed. 3 months pass and I told myself I'd take my nclex again in December right before Christmas, I did and failed once again. At that point I wasn't even mad, sad, or upset. I just felt numb. I didn't tell anyone in my family about the 2nd time, just my friends. I kind of knew I failed because the test turned off at around 150 something questions & that number just felt odd to me. After my mom starting being curious about me taking the test she reach out to one of my distant aunts who has been an RN for just about 20 years to help tutor me. She had no problem helping me & I went to her house for a tutor session about 2 times a wk for 2 hours starting that January. Spring of April comes around & my aunt & I felt like it was time to take the test again, you don't wanna take too long to take it again after you fail you know? I got all 205 & failed for a 3rd time. At this point I was just fed up on top of the test being expensive. Every time you fail you have to wait 45 days & pay $200 to the testing site. But my aunt didn't want to give up on me, nor did my mom want me to give up, or my other friends & family still at that point. All together for 8 months my aunt & I kept fighting & didn't give up. It's summer & who wants to study & prepare for a test all summer? So my aunt & I agreed that I'd take it the end of the summer to be fair. Sept 8, 2016 on my 4th try I finally passed my boards and like the time before I had all 205 questions. The whole point of that long story was don't give up lol. You may not understand what God's doing if you're having a hard time like I did but you can't question his timing. Who knew a yr & 2 months later would be when I passed & how my journey went. I did it & so can you, I'm a true testimony. If nursing is really in your heart you can do this. I know I was born to be a nurse.