Is this worth it...?

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Hi, First off, I would like to say I am very sorry about depressing title of this post. I am about to explain why.

My name is Jinah and I am from seoul, south korea. I came here to U.S. as a foreign exchange student in Small town in Texas. I loved my host family and they were also nice to me (at first..). Soon, they offered me to stay with them if I wanted to goto college after completing high school here in U.S. I agreed and went back to South Korea.

Soon, I realized that the school i was attending at small town was not able to accept me as an international student( F-1 ). therefore, I had to take GED and started University as a biology major. I struggled quite a bit since then. My host mom suffered from depression. She often took out anger on me which I was fine with. Soon, she accused me of cheating with her husband and told me that she will send me back to Korea... My host dad was also aware of this situation but he could not do anything for me or her. He treated me as if I was his own daughter. (My host mom is not able to have children)I think I cried almost everyday for past 3 years. Only hope and dream I had was to graduate with biology degree, get into dental school and attend dental school to start my new life. In my Junior year, I started applying to dental school and got into Texas dental schools. However, my parents told me that they could not afford the tuition. (This was due to my dad's business.) Also, i didn't tell my parents about the situation with host mom neither.

Since then, I have been wondering what is happening. All the hard works I have put into studying seemed to disappear across the sky. I felt like God was telling me this is not a place to have a fresh start. However, I still tried and finally decided to go for second bachelor in nursing after I graduated with Biology degree.

Now, I am currently 20 and in my first semester of nursing school without host family ( I moved away). However, I was looking up things online and I feel like there is no light at the end of my tunnel. There is no guarantee that i will be able to receive Work visa/green card. I feel like I should just quit everything and go back to korea. I feel like God is telling me that.

Thank you for reading this. I am sure there are a lot of people who go through more struggles than me. However, I just needed a place to vent and share my story..... Thank you.....

Please feel free to ask me any questions or suggestions.

P.S. i have been just seeking for calm and steady life... that is part of reason why I chose nursing (because nurses can find a job anywhere and it is a pretty stable job).

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Hello and welcome to the site

I am sorry you are having a rough time of it, yes you may have issues once you complete your studies due to retrogression however who knows what will be going off in a couple of years time. I doubt retrogression will be over as it has been ongoing since Oct 2006 and still ongoing with many in the queue.

It is worth it well only you can decide but I am sure you will make the decision that is best for you

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Thank you for the information :)

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Thank you for the information :)

I am also from South Korea, F1 status student, in BSN program.

I hope you consider going back to Korea as your option. Right now there is no way for a new grad RN to get a H1B visa (otherwise known as work visa) without special training or further studies.

I am also planning on getting out of here and really hoping to at least do some work during the OPT when I graduate, but things aren't looking up.

I also changed my course from pre-med track to Nursing because of family and financial issues, but when the country you want to work in has their own economic issues, what do you do...

Keep in mind that going to Korea as a university student may give you a fresh start. In Korea there are 3 year and 4 year nursing programs, and nursing license exam is taken in Korean so it might be better for you to get education there. For me I have to study everything over again in Korean so it's a bit of a problem for me.

I never had to live with a homestay family but I did live alone for most of my time here in the US so I understand just how lonely you are and how hard it is to not even be able to share your problems to anyone else.

I hope you look into options and decide which path is the best for you. BUT personally with the economic situation in the US, I don't really recommend any non US citizen getting a BSN in the US unless they've got some other ideas

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