Is there any way to help me get back to college and be ale to transfer?

[color=#2f2f4f]after high school, there were so many things happen to me; i then enrolled in a community college but i did not do well at all. i got 12 f in 4 different colleges with about 2.5 gpa. when i realized that with that record, i would not be able to success or accomplish my goal, so i decided to go to a private school for an lvn program. after 13 months of continuously nursing education, finally i graduated with a lvn license. that was the most wonderful moment of my life. during my clinical time at the hospitals, i learned so many lessons about life, love, and education. i realized that i need to go back to college and complete my rn/bsn goal and become a nurse.

today, i went to a community college with all of my 4 transcripts. i understood that there was no college or cal states would accept me. therefore i asked the counselor about repeating those classes or in other word " can i start everything again from the beginning?" i truly wished she would say "yes" for me, so i could have a chance to fix my mistake and be successful. however, the answer was "no, no one can start again. you will need to tell any school that you will attend about your transcript. beside, you have some good grades too. what in the past is in the past already, the important is how you are going to do now. you need to continue on some class that you miss, and do well on it" and she also told me "nursing at this school is very competitive, and you have many other choices beside that..." i then understood what she mean was "nursing is not possible for you!" because she did not answer my question " if i going back to college and study hard on the rest of the class (about 30 more units) am i able to transfer?"...she...just kept silent.

i really feel bad about my grades before and i want to make it up, i want to start my education again. however, how can i continue to study while there would be no chance to transfer? is it because i did not do well at the beginning so i am forever banned from universities and cal states? if anyone in here, in california, or anyone work in u.s education and have a knowledge about this, would you please give me an advice? i don't want to give up my life, i really want to go back and fix my mistake. would you please help me...

is it possible for me to go back to college and improve my grades so i can transfer and have a chance to be accepted even when i have 12 f before?

if there is a class that i have repeated it 3 times at 2 different school but i ended up with bad grade again, am i able to retake it a gain at this new college?

please help me so i can go back to college and continue my education. i will not let it down again. please help!!!

thank you so much for your concerning...

best wishes for you all...