Help! Need to Chill Out and Focus!

Hi Everyone!

Frustrated. Embarrassed. Angry with myself. I am letting my nerves get the best of me during my first precepting experiences. Usually I'm a very responsible, organized, independent person but I keep making stupid and careless errors during my orientation when someone is watching me perform skills. For example, at first I kept leaving the med cart unlocked ( I'm in LTC) because I was so focused on getting the meds drawn up correctly and quickly when the preceptor was watching. I never left the cart unlocked when I was allowed to run things myself without an audience. I think I don't take ownership of my cart if I have a trainer present. I notice that once I am given some breathing room, I relax and remember my training and think for myself. Problem is I had to quit one job 7 days into orientation because they were unwilling to have a new grad on the floor and to allow me to train. I was expected to be perfect. (apparently no one read my app or resume or listened when I said I was a new grad, not until after I reported to work the first day.) Because the pressure as so great, I made stupid errors in the first few days. Even though I improved and mastered the cart by day 7, the feeling was mutual that I should go.

Now, I'm training again. Day one. Things were going really well...until I realized I made another careless error. Not a fatal one, but still one that shouldn't happen. If I don't stop this and get over these nerves, I'm not going to have a job...again.

I need help! So advice on things that have helped others get past the training and actually onto the real job! Any advice appreciated.