Do you feel what i feel?

[psySins]

Does anyone of you feels the way i feel at this moment? i am a graduating student here in the Philippines finishing Bachelor of Science in Nursing this coming march. but even though i am already near at the finish line of this challenge in my life, i feel that i am going to cross in the line with few knowledge at all. the real problem is that my memory easily flushes some important details in my previous subjects especially the major ones. for example, when i am being asked in anatomy in physiology, i know that we have tackled it already way back when i was in the first level but still i cannot recall it at all anymore, maybe i can answer it but not in a much detailed way already. even some basic skills in my second year and some disorders which we have finished when we were in our third year. i don't know what is happening to me because i can say that in our previous subjects and until now, i have a good performance that sometimes i get the highest grade in our class. in my everyday life in school, as lectures and skills being taught gets more and more, the more my previous knowledge gets flushed out of my memory. there are some instances in our duty when my clinical instructor would ask me something and i forgot the exact idea for that question, I'll just scratch the back of my head and do the best that i can do just to recall it. what i do is to run and get back to my notes and then say to myself, "oh, now i remember." sometimes, my clinical instructor would say that i have already the idea but the problem is that i have forgotten it already. because of this, i decided not to take the June 2009 local board exam but instead, I'll take it on November this year. i promised myself that after i graduated, I'll get back on my notes starting on my first year up to my fourth year for the whole 8 months of my review for the November 2009 board exam. Good luck to me and to all of batch of 2009!