Changing fields, scared

[considermebranded]

So I have been nursing about 2 years. When I started I was confident, strong, happy and calm. I loved critical care. Then I moved provinces and it all went down hill. I became anxious and scared. I worked mental health and lost my skills. I went back to critical care and broke down mentally.

Currently I work in a facility that is hostile and poisoned. The moral is awful, the gossip and rumours are amazing. As charge nurse my manager looks to me to stop this poison. I routinely go hands on and with security take violent clients to seclusion. Routinely I save my employees and security from being strangled. This doesn't bother me. It's the 9 emails I get on my days off that kill me. Form not signed, didn't make eye contact with staff to ask for lights to be turned on ( while I am subduing a patient with security). My management team has me so scared and convinced I am the worst nurse here.

I am am interviewing for a new position in long term care, Eden philosophy. I hated LTC but the Eden philosophy sounds amazing.

Has anyone worked with it? Any advice. Even just thoughts on my situation?

Sorry for ranting. In the past this site has helped me through tough times. I appreciate you all

considermebranded RN

[Libby1987]

Your situation sounds more than what basic coping mechanisms will help but I hope you find better working conditions.

[considermebranded]

Thank you