Anorexia / ED

[Rexa]

hello, I'm struggling quite a bit in terms of morals.. I have an ED, had it from 2019 till now.. 

thing is I'm not planning on ever recovering nor do I need recovery as an option, I believe I work better with my ED.. in terms of restricting is what I mean and maintaining / losing

im OK with maintaining atm

however I plan on become a nurse, yet my morals are conflicting.. I am adamant on becoming a nurse but I think about my ED and I feel like I'll be inadequate... in terms of treating others 

I have scars on my left arm, I've recovered from self harm but it's a worry as scars are healed yet there... I feel like I might be forced into treatment and IDK what to do.

 

[KellySltr, BSN, MSN, RN]

No one can force you into treatment; however, placing yourself might be a good option as it sounds you may need some support and advice at this time in your life. It is good to recognize and think of your decisions and disorder. Only you can make the choice to feel better. If you think this is disrupting your ethics while you work, I suggest reaching out for help. You are not alone.

[TPLPRN, BSN]

Rexa said:

hello, I'm struggling quite a bit in terms of morals.. I have an ED, had it from 2019 till now.. 

thing is I'm not planning on ever recovering nor do I need recovery as an option, I believe I work better with my ED.. in terms of restricting is what I mean and maintaining / losing

im OK with maintaining atm

however I plan on become a nurse, yet my morals are conflicting.. I am adamant on becoming a nurse but I think about my ED and I feel like I'll be inadequate... in terms of treating others 

I have scars on my left arm, I've recovered from self harm but it's a worry as scars are healed yet there... I feel like I might be forced into treatment and IDK what to do.

 

Hi,

First of all, you're not alone. You might be surprised by how many people have struggled with EDs and self harm.

With that said...I think it's important to remember that as a nurse, you will be responsible for human lives. If you're impaired and not taking proper care of yourself, your performance will suffer, and consequences will follow. This is absolutely inevitable. There's no way around this reality, no matter how deeply you believe that you'll be the exception to the rule.

Please consider talking with a professional. You owe it to yourself, and to your future colleagues and patients if you choose to become a nurse.

Wishing you the best ❤️