idonursing2000

I feel awful typing this because I love what I do for a job, knowing I can make a difference in someone’s life but I had a shift a few weeks ago which I think has ruined all the confidence I had build up the past 6 months. The shift in question involved a patient unexpectedly passing away - even though I know I did absolutely everything I could, it still sits on my mind constantly. Since then I am always on edge when on shift and am a nervous wreck before I go in. I don’t sleep, feel too sick to eat and the anxiety is so high. Being a NQN this has become too much for me and the pressure is too much, due to understaffing in the UK we have to have 12 patients a shift and I’m struggling to split myself so everyone gets the best care possible. I then feel guilty for the patients I’m looking after. Due to all of this I am really considering leaving the nursing profession because my mental health can’t take much more and I can’t cope with feeling so down all the time anymore, if anyone could offer any advice please I would appreciate it xx