NURSE998

First post - not sure if I am doing this correctly. I just graduated nursing school and got my BSN Fall '21. Currently part of a new grad program and have learned that I absolutely do not like bedside nursing. I enjoy healthcare and theory but hate bedside. I cry before and after every shift and have anxiety on days that I am off. I am starting to regret becoming a nurse. I do not enjoy what I do and find the constant GO GO GO atmosphere to be exhausting. I am miserable. I have applied for other nursing jobs and have gotten offers for hospice and home IV therapy and don't know which one to take. Most other jobs require experience, which I clearly do not have. I know the Golden Advice is to stick it out for one year but at this point I do not know if I can handle it. I feel incompetent and just frustrated - I thought this was the career for me but instead I am now depressed, tired, anxious, and downright miserable. Thank you for reading this rant and I appreciate kind words and advice.