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UPDATE: I was supposed to get off orientation at the end of this week. On Monday, my nurse manager and the nurse educator call me into their office to tell me all the things I am not doing up to their standards. They said I have not progressed to where I need to be, as voiced by my preceptor, and that I have to change immediately or I am fired. They mentioned I did not do a follow up bp for a patient who was running low, quick enough. They said I did not check labs for a patient's low potassium and did not intervene at all even though my preceptor told me the lab and I gave IV potassium and packets. They also said I do not have a professional demeanor and verbiage with patients and when I asked for clarification they said I do not try to converse with patients and am not personable with them. I admit I do struggle from social anxiety but I was always offering patients help with anything they needed and was always professional and caring. (Clearly this comment was sparked from my preceptor who is the only one who could have observed this). There were other things and on Tuesday they gave me a write up which was so harsh and discouraging to me. Anyway, clearly my preceptor did not have my back and did not warn me it was coming to this as she talked to them extensively about my inadequacies behind my back without offering feedback to me directly. My preceptor has also insinuated to me that she thinks I do not care about the patients and how I should "treat them like my children." She said if I want to just medicate all day I should go to a nursing home, but don't these patients really need to get their medication? The whole orientation was so fragmented and I barely learned anything aside from medication. Anyway, I have resigned because I could not stand how toxic the environment had become. I have another nursing job I am taking more shifts at in the interim. I feel better like a weight has been lifted.

Oh wow, rotating days and nights! That's rough because you are always adjusting your sleep cycle to your schedule. Would you ever talk to your boss about getting on a more consistent schedule like straight nights or days? That's good that you are making time for yourself. I have been trying to keep up with hobbies and self care stuff myself too. Nursing is so stressful, especially as a new grad and you definitely need an outlet. Wishing good things for you and your nursing career. ?

New grad RN on orientation in a telemetry unit and feeling like I won't be able to manage once orientation ends. There is so much to learn and I just have a couple of weeks left. Most of the time it gets very crazy so my preceptor takes over without explaining things just trying to make sure the job gets done. All day I am taking care of medication and she does all the background stuff. Talking to patients and their families, as well as doctors and the rest of the healthcare team is a struggle for me because I feel like I have a hard time seeing the bigger picture of what is keeping the patient in the hospital and have to try very hard to come up with answers to people's questions like during rounds. I spoke to other new hires at my unit and they said they feel similarly and none of us feel ready. I don't want to fail and will continue to try but I am really uncertain what my outcome will be. Can anyone relate?