LuckystarNP

I guess you misunderstood what I meant. I did not say I don't want the responsibility and lifelong learning. My problem here is not being able to meet the doctor expectation which is able see full load of patients (average of 25 to 30 patients) a day after my 60 hours of training. And I don't feel comfortable yet to be in the office by myself to handle full load of patients. I know it takes time to be comfortable as a provider... Maybe you did not need a lot of support when you first started, however, for me I do need some time to transit the role from RN to NP. I found that a supportive environment and employer will help me during the transition, however, I did not feel it at this work place. Thanks for your advice.

I did it. I resigned. He wasn't happy. He was questioning how could I be a nurse for 10 years with this confident level. Whatever he wanted to say...I am so happy and feel good about making this decision. Hopefully I will get a better job soon. Thank you for all the encouragement and advices.

Yes, literally he told me that these people cannot understand, so just call yourself a doctor. He said he cannot understand why he needs to spend time with me to discuss about this. I also don't like the idea of "fake it to make it". He told me this is unprofessional to tell patients that, "I am not sure the answer, but I will find out for you." He does not have respect to me, to the NP profession, and to his patients. I will definitely move on and hopefully can find someone who is supportive. Thank you for your encouragement.

Thank you very much I was honest to the patients that I am in training, but he didn't like me saying that. He told me I should tell patients that I am a doctor. I told him I am not supposed to. I think patients should have the right to know if they are seeing a doctor or a NP. He told me no one will want to see me if I tell them I am a NP. (due to the language barrier since the patients are mostly immigrants). I talked to my preceptor today who is also a pediatric doctor. He said I am more than welcome to work with him. I hope this will work out well. I wish I can find a job with a NP just like you, because I think a lot of doctors don't understand the role of NP. Thank you for your support. I wish you good luck as well.

Thank you for the advices. I totally agree that residency should be mandatory. It helps boosting self confidence and knowledge in order to ease the transition from being a nurse to a provider. I was self doubting myself everyday when I left the office, because I received negative feedback from him almost everyday. He always compares me to his previous NP, who was also a new grad. He said she was able to see patients on her own after 3 days training. Even though he said that the NP was lack of knowledge, he saw her very confident in front of parents and able to made parents believe in what she said. He said my experience and knowledge are much better than her but he could not see me confident enough to be a provider. I guess this job is a mismatch. Quitting is better for him and I, so that we won't waste each other time.

I am a new grad NP. I am currently working in a pediatric private practice . The doctor wants me to work alone in the office after 60 hours of "training". My training was a 8 hour shadowing, and starting to see patients myself. The doctor would come over and double check after I am done seeing the patients. He would tell me to go to the other room to see another patient while he double checking. During this week, the doctor gave me feedback, saying that I am too slow and I should be able to see patients on my own by now. Because the doctor has two offices, he wants to put me in one office by myself with a MA, so that he can be in the other office. I told him that I don't feel comfortable yet. He was upset and telling me I am wasting his time. He said he has already gave me a lot of training. He wants me to give him a timeframe to let him know when will I be comfortable to work solo. I feel that I am rushed to finish training and I don't feel safe at all. I told him my feeling and he said I will not be able to be a provider since he thinks that I don't have confidence. Also, the MA in the office only does measurement, such as weight and head circumference. She also prepares vaccines. I need to do all the blood drawn which I think it made me slow down on seeing patients. Since I need to hold down the fussy kid in order to take blood. I am thinking about quitting, but not sure if this is a good decision. Any advice please? Thank you. (English is my second language, sorry for any grammatical mistakes)