what is life ahead? a glimpse of me

[jobelle1987]

greetings!!!

my name is jobelle 21 from philippines.

i work now in a telecommunication company as a customer service representative,

while i am surfing the net looking for a better job, i have found this site....i've read some stories so it came to my realization that it is not only me, who feels the same problem in life...and a little hope reestablished.

since i was a student, i've been a fighter to my daily struggle , even though nursing was not really my ambition career, but when i became a nursing student, i have appreciated my life more and how i am blessed by god and being blessing to my patients. i experienced a lot financial difficulties, i did promissory note from time to time and i don't remember any examination day without crying over it because i always fear not to graduate because of my previous situation. god was the only one i turned on at my downfall, i was able to graduate same with my classmates, i didn't fail any subject and i got it in four years. i thought after graduation that everything will be so easy, but i was wrong. the more it became so complicated because i have to live alone in the city without receiving any assistance from my parents because they are also facing same crisis, while i did application to different companies at age 19. my office mates asked me why i am at their field when i have finished a different career. it saddened me but i ignored it. i saved my salary and one good friend had helped me too just to get the licensure exam and i made it at one take last december 2007, it was the happiest moment in my life. i couldn't believe that i've achieved my main goal, because even 1 book i wasn't able to buy one during college days, i only borrowed from friends and i prayed more than i reviewed.

i've involved in different medical mission and i am enjoying it. i've been a volunteer nurse in our town for almost 1 year but i need to leave because i was shy being a burden again of my family. i applied again for another work to support myself, for almost 3months stay, the company offered me for regularization position but i am still not accepting because i am not happy with my job, i do their instructions and do my job correctly but myself can't relate to it. some says accept the offer, and some says i fought a lot being a nurse why not working in the hospital, but right now our country is having difficulty in employing nurses and more on political way before they consider the applicant.

what is the best thing to do? is there any organization who handles the same problem, i admit there are times i question, could i still be a part of the nursing world?