struggling-prospective nursing student

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Hey guys,:cry:

Excuse me for what I am about to say but I need something/someone to vent to. I recently submitted my applications to two nursing schools...and I am a bit disappointed in myself. To begin I must say that at one point I was a 4.0 student who aside from being a full-timer at college I was working part-time as an emergency medical technician.

I thought I had so much control over my Life at that point and I decided to transfer to a more difficult college. Whether I wanted to challenge myself or try to make amends with an ex who left me heartbroken, until this day I believe the worst decision of my Life. Well, I had no other choice but to dorm and becoming nostalgic from home left me with no other option but to stop dorming. I became a commuter who currently lives an hour from the school I transferred to. Must I say that when I first transferred to this institute...I went from having a 4.0 to a 3.7. The second semester I registered into math and science courses and my gpa dropped significantly to something like a 2.4. ...

At that point I knew medical school was out the window so I decided to look into nursing school...and after attempting to raise my gpa to at least a 3.0 by getting Bs in courses such as a&p 1 and 2, infant and child development, sociology..etc. I decided to take chemistry a semester before I graduate...

and here I sit...typing this as anxious and perhaps stressed out I feel, after seeing ym grade for chemistry in which I have earned a D.

....Not only have I cried for hours but I feel completely hopeless because I believe that no matter how hard I have been trying I still feel inept. No matter how badly I wish to becoming a pediatric nurse...I sill feel hopeless knowing that I would have to retake this course to prove to the schools I have applied to that I deserve a seat in their institute...not only do i have to take it all over but I have other courses that just add to the workload..

As you can tell I feel somewhat like a loser. I don't know what to do anymore...and a little advice can only help. thanks

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Specializes in hospice.

Warning: I don't think you're going to like my answer.

You need to stop making decisions with your emotions. Once you moved to the new school (and I think you moved for the ex, 1st bad decision) you're probably right that you had no choice but to live in the dorms. However, you DID have a choice about moving out of them and becoming a commuter. An hour each way is not insignificant. It cuts into your study time and makes you tired. I bet it's made you late to class a couple times.

Here's what I think you're doing: when something becomes uncomfortable or unpleasant, you react only in ways to relieve your discomfort and not with rational evaluation of pros and cons. Miss the ex? Uproot your whole life and education and move an hour away from home to chase him/her. Homesick? Uproot life and education again and move home, complicating everything and strewing your path with roadblocks.

What's missing is perseverance. Much of being an adult is learning to suffer unpleasantness temporarily in pursuit of an important goal. When I moved from California to Chicago for college, no matter how homesick I was, if I wanted my degree I had to put unhappiness on the back burner and push forward.

I think you should move back near school, don't go looking for the ex, and buckle down and finish your degree. Then you'll have more options. When everything sucks and you hate it, remind yourself why you're there. Over and over, until you finish.

Good luck.

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Specializes in Med/Surg, Ortho, ASC.

"At that point I knew medical school was out the window so I decided to look into nursing school..."

Not really the best reason to go to nursing school. Nursing school is hard for most folks and will require a full dedication on your part, not just a fall-back attitude.

Is there any other career that you really want to pursue?

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I know med students that have 4.0 and can't make it into medical school. Please take "going to be a nurse since I can't be a doctor" out of your vocabulary please. It takes 110% dedication to be a nurse. I drove 48 miles one way to school. I had a 0600 to 0800 study group every morning. I got 4 to 6 hours of sleep. Maybelline 24 hr concealer was developed just for nursing students. I worked on the weekends. My husband thought I was having an affair because everything and I mean EVERYTHING was put on the back burner. After graduation, we had a second honeymoon. ( wink) right now, go ahead and have a pity party. But come time to register for your chemistry class, you better suck it up buttercup. Dont take any other hard subjects with chemistry either. If you need to knock out a history class or speech do that. But no other 4 hour classes with labs. Good luck. You can do it.

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I absolutely agree with you.

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