1st RN job at LTC and I want to quit

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I have been struggling to find a job for quite some time and I was finally hired at a nursing home. I was skeptical because I don't see myself working in LTC and heard many negative feedback on LTC but i was in desperate need to get some nursing experience and also to pay off my loans and other bills. I had about 2 months of orientation which was great until the last 2 weeks. I had trouble with doing admissions along with my other responsibilities. When I was off orientation for a month I have gotten written up 3 times two were not carrying out orders right away and another for not signing off all meds in MAR.. mind you this some of the meds i forgot to sign was colace or tylenol. I also got in trouble for doing overtime. I also float on different units which it takes time knowing your parents and how they like to take there meds and also treatments as well. I know I need to be more cautious with my med pass and i need to establish a better way for my time management.. however its hard for me to focus on 30 patients to myself on one unit. From working these 3 months..i have learned its a dog eat dog world in which when something goes wrong.. they need someone to blame. Some of the nurses that I work with are sneaky and basically reported me to DON in which I have gotten written up. I had a meeting with my supervisor and my preceptors saying that they will support me through this time and what things i need to improve and if i need help ask them which was great. However i just feel so overwhelmed, stressed out, i find myself not sleeping well, and i rarely take my lunch breaks. If I get written up 2 more times that may lead to suspension or being fired. I really don't want to jeopardize my license. Im debating if I should quit now or wait another 4-5 weeks to see improvement, since my supervisor told me that these next 5 weeks are very crucial for me. This is my very first full time job as a RN and i just feel completely upset with my situation. I really do love being a nurse and taking care of my patients, however I hate feeling this way. I also feel like im being taking advantage because in this month im scheduled to work 7 days straight on different weeks and i have been working 4 weekends in a row as well. Please i just need some advice that will help me through this situation. I just want some input please.