I'm a new grad nurse with my BSN and working at an assisted living facility for residents with Alzheimer's. I've been working here for the past two summers as a caregiver.
But anyways, I'm on my 2nd day of orientation and have only 2 more days left before I am on my own & I don't feel like I can do this job!! I feel extremely overwhelmed.
Once I am supposed to be on my own, I'll be the only nurse (3-11pm) for 50 residents! We have a LOT of meds to pass and it's been taking me extra longer, since they have Alzheimer's.
I want to talk to my boss later today and tell her how I feel. Ultimately, I want to work at a hospital as soon as possible, and she knows about that. However, I thought I would be able to handle this job in the meantime - but these orientation days have been hectic for me :\ I don't feel 100% confident that I can work here alone as a new grad and not make a mistake that can harm a resident, which terrifies me!!
Also, I felt like my orientation has been VERY rushed and disorganized. They're frantically looking for a new night nurse, so I know they are desperate to keep me around.
My biggest fear is that once I'm on my own next week I'm going to be overwhelmed and make mistakes I just have a bad feeling about this job and want to leave while I can. The thing that worries me is that it's going to hinder my job hunt. I've only worked at this place as a healthcare-related job, so my boss will probably give me a bad reference to employers. Weighing the options, though, I'd rather do that versus unintentionally harm a resident and lose my license...
What do you guys think? Do you think I'm making the right decision?