Well my dear - I don't know you, but I am VERY proud of you! Amen sister in Christ. And yes, the great deceiver has been beaten down with a huge Wooden Stick - we just have to take that power that was given us by the Holy Spirit and run with it. I am 45 and going into nursing school after working as a CNA as a primary or secondary job since 1989. I became a police officer and was forced to medically retire three years ago - and let me tell you....the pity party I held for myself was beyond pathetic. Then The Big Guy (my loving term for God), smacked me upside the head and showed me another path - a path that I had been walking for so many years anyway. I have learned that no matter what tests we go through, they help strengthen us for a harder test down the line. Take today for example - I had a resident with developmental disabilities (and other pathologies) try to physically attack another resident. I was able to purposefully detain her without hurting her or myself (a part of my old law enforcement training) and when she bit me and hit me so hard across the face that she broke my glasses; I was blessed with an immediate peace which allowed me to stay focused and not angry. I could see her pathology, not her person. The end of the incident was peaceful, contained and we moved on. All a part of things that I have been through in the past as a CNA and police officer. All glory to God - and yes, sister....you WILL pass. :)