I hate med-surg as well. I knew it wasn't for me before nursing school!!! Don't second guess yourself, you know you better than anyone! I was a CNA and commonly had up to 15 patients and loved every moment of that job. When you have found your passio...
I purchased some of my books as e books which were significantly cheaper. For some classes I prefer a hard copy of the book but for others the ebook is just as sufficient and less expensive!