You are not alone and I applaud you for hanging in there... I could not. I landed my dream job 3 months after NCLEX, but hated it from day 2 (I knew day 1 would be rough so no surprise there). The hospital offered 6 weeks orientation (which is ridiculous) - management had no problem letting me do 9 though. The floor was crazy - short-staffed, the aides took offense at being expected to do their jobs, 5-6 patients, high acuity (we got everything except vent patients), nonstop admissions and discharges... the other nurses were mostly VERY kind and willing to help, except that when you were running around like crazy so was everyone else, so no one had the time. I spoke to my manager multiple times about how I felt, nothing ever changed. My anxiety spiraled out of control... losing sleep, dreading work multiple days in advance of the shift. I'm left feeling like an epic failure, quitting 6 months in as a new grad -- i have NO idea what I'm going to do now -- but as others have said on other threads - no one will take care of you but you. Don't kill yourself over it. If you can hang in there - excellent!! People told me "it gets better" a million times (but that's hard to believe when some of the most experienced nurses also leave 1-2 hours late from a 12 hour shift). However, my health is more important to me than trying to keep dealing with the insanity until maybe one day I wouldn't feel like dying before, during, and after every shift. I am convinced there is an area of nursing out there that is right for me, I just hope I can find it...
