Thanks to all of you who gave me constructive criticism, prayers, and further USEFUL information. I got a call today that I'm not being terminated. Instead I just have a meeting with them Monday to talk about it and how we can change it. I completely told them the truth and informed them I would do ANYTHING to help me and others in the future. They understood me and know the type of person and nurse I am. I am just grateful that they see me as a nurse that they still want on their team. Yes I did learn all of this the hard way. Just as a poster said before sometimes things might not stick when you are handed a sheet or told in general conversation... Sometimes you practically have to run into it to make it make sense and stick. Believe me IT IS STUCK!!! I will do everything in my power to continue to give the best care I can, smile at everyone I come into contact with, and bring reading material. :-) again thanks to all for the comments that were of use... Some gave it to me head on but still with care, some gave it nicely to try to make me feel better, and others well... Didn't leave me with anything to remember but to wonder if they ever made a mistake in their life, because guess what... I'm human and I learned.