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  1. Hello. I'm supposed to be a nurse with 8+ years of experience but thanks to my sad choices those years don't really count. I'm thinking between giving up nursing for good or starting over again. I was thinking of aiming for Canada since nurses seems to have lots of options over there. Ideally, I want go at least as far as having a Master's Degree. I'm also considering Germany because it seems to be the cheaper option. I guess what I'm trying to get out of this thread are thoughts of which countries are most viable for a 30 y/o something school returnee. Will there be a job after? Is it stress free to work part time? Anybody here done this? How was your experience? At first, I've thought of refresher courses. I've been searching for refresher courses in my home country (Philippines) because that's supposed to be the decision that makes the most sense but we don't really have those programs. Hospitals offer training but only for the ones they'll consider to hire. Being one of those people is difficult for someone who knows no one like me. Even if I do manage to be considered. I don't want to be tied to a contract. Also, there's this fact that I want to erase the last 5 years (OMG it's been 5 years) from my experience. I've also looked into UK. It turns out that they're done with their ONP and that I could actually get licensed over there even if I delete the last five years of my experience. I've considered getting licensed and availing their refresher course but that just sounds weird. I was going to consider US but I don't think the country is open to foreigner anymore. Is it not? Thanks. I know this is too broad and a little directionless so thanks in advance for those who reply.
  2. hazyblue

    Perpetually stressed.

    Going to be. Taking the day off doesn't have an effect anymore. Leisure activities will be good for half a day or so. Since last month or was it the last, I've caught myself reprimanding one or two clients. Thankfully, I still have it in me not to commit abuse. Still, this week I was at the point of crying in front of one client, I was tempted to slam my head on a wall (twice or more), I actually went down on the floor for almost a minute that one time, and I was very tempted to call out my colleague for her BS. Most of my work stress comes from the fact that I just don't know how to care for 20+ clients in a supposedly rehabilitation/long-term care facility wherein our work is timed and judged as if we are in an ordinary home-for-the-aged whilst having patients that needs acute care. I just don't know how to not be stressed when trying to keep 2-3 of them stable when I'm alone at night. My workplace limits 2 nurses and 1 auxillary during night shift. Of course, the other nurse also has their hands "full". ....(Now I'm tempted to rant on the unfair patient distribution...) I don't know how others manage. Take vital signs taking and routine suctioning for example. I cannot imagine how some can do those within 30-40 minutes when plenty of our clients won't stay put, are edematous, has cold extremities etc. Am I suppose to suction and take V/S at the same time? Won't that lead to inaccurate results? And then there's the undefined standards.... I'm not so sure about normal values anymore. I don't even know where to start on that. The latest incident was that one of my patients has a BP of 80/50s for the last 24 hours. He has a history of such before (others too) and I am always told to just continue monitoring. This time however I have a different feeling. The client wasn't palloric yet but there's a slight change in color. I asked my colleague if it really is okay to just continue monitoring, won't it be better to refer immediately. (By the way, I'm the still the kind-of new foreign nurse hence the need to consult others). They said okay. Later the BP did gradually dropped and even later I was told "I should have referred earlier".... ...Ah. Many of them are a factor too. There's just too much to say. Too much. Actually, I'm supposed to be at work at this very moment. I called work to say I'm going to be late. The "I should have referred earlier" +full of BS nurse (they're the same person) was the one who picked up the phone and before I knew it my symptoms where amplified. My call turned into a call for absence. She told me to go see a doctor. Now, I'm just imagining scenarios wherein I do go see a specialist and tell them I want to hit my fellow nurse. Or, I go talk to our manager and confess that I'm super stressed and ask for an official mental health leave. Perhaps also begged to not be assigned with toxic people. Handling difficult clients is enough. Alas, there's just too many things to consider. I won't be surprised if they take this against my nationality and the like. I guess I should just prepare to quit. I'd really don't want to quit because my life/career was turned into shambles thanks to my last job and this job is supposed to be the rock to which I cling on and turn my life over. ... Now, I want to tell you about the specific circumstances in my job but this post is already too long and is probably uncoordinated and such... Let's just say that I don't even feel like I'm a pill pusher. I'm just someone who they didn't really want to hire but hired anyway because they needed a registered nurse to sign things and the like. I'm not just overthinking this with my stressed mind. I seriously don't have a decent orientation in this facility. I'm actually the one who suggested if I should just read the ward manual... ....It would be nice to have a regular pill pusher job.
  3. I know that ways to handle a family differs by case. To be honest, I'm probably here to unload rather than ask for advice. Let me tell it chronologically. One of my patients is on mechanical ventilation and the alarm for his tidal volume kept ringing. I did everything my untrained self knew when it comes to intervention. When I couldn't fix it, I immediately asked for the team leader's help. She said that that's just the way it is with that patient. Sometimes it just happens to be go off like that. She even reprimanded me when I tried promoting lung expansion by repositioning. Later in the day, we eventually consulted with our head nurse with the attending physician within earshot. The plan was to change the tubings with a "disclaimer" that nothing would probably change. I was advised to just monitor the patiens status. Now, it's policy not to mute mechanical ventilators and that's where the problem is. The patient is sharing a room with another patient whose family came later in the day. Naturally, they were worried and bothered. I said my apologies. I even said that I've referred the situation. Apparently that went through their heads. It didn't help that therapists were making a fuss about it nearby. What? Was I supposed to explain to them the status of the patient who's not related to them? I couldn't just stand there forever. The patient's vital were fine. No loss of consciousness and such. I had 20+ other people to take care off. I left and later I found one of the relatives roaming around looking for my leader. The moment was quite upsetting for me. I didn't like this idea that I wasn't doing my job. That I don't care about the patients. I got really sad. If I was in my early 20's, I would have cried. I respond to alarms not coming from my patients even if other nurses simply ignore mine... I'm the one who found the leader first. Funny, before I could even finish my referral, she told me to stop minding the alarm. I told her that the family on he next bed seems to think that I'm not doing my job. She went to troubleshoot for me and the alarm stopped... for a while. Just like it sometimes does. But, in that short while, I could hear one family member, the one who went roaming around, saying things, one of which is, "It's good that I reported it." =_= FYI, the consultation with our head nurse happened when I bypassed our leader. It's just so upsetting. I wanted to defend myself but I also feel stupid for doing what I was told to do/not to do. I mean I would be worried to if I were the family... Maybe I should habe broken the policy and kept the machine on mute... I don't know. Anyway, they were considering the respiration problem to be time-related body-clock wise.
  4. hazyblue

    Nursing Specialization in the Philippines

    ^ Do you pay for the training program or do they pay you? What's the scope of the training? Thanks.
  5. hazyblue

    Finally! Will this be the end of our woes?

    I wish they could also find more jobs for us...making volunteering free is good but thing could be better. > I hate having to pay. I missed the opportunity of open hiring at nearby tertiary hospitals because of their fees. Applying at far away hospitals are impractical for me because of limited transport. Now that I managed to raise some money (still limited though), there is freeze hiring almost everywhere. And then, it's even harder to go abroad because I don't work in a tertiary hospital.... >_>
  6. I don't think they prioritized those with 1 year experience because I have that and an IVT license but I never got a call. And I passed my requirements earlier than others too. I wonder what wrong thing I did....
  7. Fabella?! Is that exam for a staff nurse position?! I've always wanted to work at Fabella but I didn't pursue it because I live far away. And when my want increased, I heard last last year that they are no longer hiring and then last year that they have a training fee! That and I'm stuck with fear of ending jobless if I quit my job for something unsure.... *deep breaths*
  8. hazyblue

    Can a shy student become an effective nurse?

    I happen to be shy too. I just go and throw myself (not literally of course) to my patients. Sometimes I even forget about my shyness thanks to work pressure/responsibilities. I am not less of a nurse because I'm shy. My communication skills and work aptitude allows me establish a connection. Sure, I'm not the type of nurse who gets invited on baptisms and the like but I believe that's fine. I still get to take care of the patient's health and that what's first and foremost important. BEWARE though. You may know it or not but, shyness may have this unpleasant effect on our communication skills. I'm not talking about stuttering and stuff like that... In my case, shyness lead to separation from society which lead to not knowing the norms. I ended up apparently deviant. I just found out my communication mannerisms are disagreeable to many who don't know me. So I suggest that you review yourself. Read on things about effective communication. Listen to yourself. Maybe ask a friend to critic you. I don't know about you but it deeply saddened me when a patient expressed feelings of hurt when he mistook my talk as disrespect to him. I never meant to hurt you.
  9. I just have to vent. I hope I'm on the right venting zone. I hate it how inconsiderate the administration, in our hospital, can be to its nursing department. I'll take it that they passed the institution's neuro-psychiatric (NP) test as they hold those positions but they sure are awful leaders. I hate it that.... I didn't meet the NP screener's standard (they say introverts don't make good leaders)... and I have to retake the whole thing after a given time....when I know, if I were an admin (insert swear word here...sorry) I can do better than them! I mean what kind of leader can be so blind to its people. I know I should respect their authority because it's a military institution (obey first before you complain) but what they are doing is just plain abuse for their staff which are by the way civilian personnel. We're being treated like were not humans. We have opinions. I would have dismissed these feelings if the admins' order is reasonable but it's stupid, impractical, compromising, abusive and the like. If it isn't enough that we have to take the pharmacists' responsibility after office hours (good thing the med. techs don't rely on us for drawing blood these past few months), janitorial work, ...they have to give us loads of paperwork.... for crying out loud... WE ARE IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM, we shouldn't be wasting our time on paper works that we can live without! Did I mention, nurse's are the ones that write the rest of the doctor's paperwork? And if we complain, we appear to be lazy. And now they expect us to open the door and assist on ambulating every patient, ambulatory by self or not. What next DO they expect us to carry each and every patient? Oh, God! If only jobs aren't so hard to find locally and overseas, I would have left already but I can't because I'm currently penniless because I wasted..spent... my money attending seminars on a field of nursing that I'm not fond of....I like the wards better.... And in the case a patient, files a complaint against one of us, and the nurse is the one on the right, they won't even protect the nurse...
  10. hazyblue

    to my fellow filipina/filipino nurses working abroad

    So they are doing that the whole shift? ...talking in their native tongue? I'm glad I read this thread. Being a loner and having hailed from a multi-lingual family (whose parents never bothered to teach their dialects...meaning I don't understand their local tongues...) I don't see what's the big deal when people talk in front of me in another language. Well I guess people who have done so, do talk to me in a familiar language at times... I don't see what's wrong with using your own language if you want to express yourself fully just as long as you don't do it all the time and at the risk of others misunderstanding. Team-building is important after all. Anyway, thanks for telling. I now know that this is a sensitive issue on your side of the world. I'll have to remember this if I go overseas. I suggest you guys confront the guilty party first prior to going to your supervisors. It's so hard to find a job these days...
  11. hazyblue

    Your first job

    We also have a job shortage for new RN's in here. I ended up doing hospital volunteer work. It was burdensome to work for free but I know that if I were to get a job in the future (which is only available overseas) I needed experience. Some actually have it worse for they have to pay to volunteer. Thankfully, the hospital didn't charge anything. Thankfully I have supportive parents. After almost a year when even jobs abroad are getting less, the government decided to increase the budget to allow their hospitals to hire nurses. It was primarily for overseas workers who got laid off but since the hospital I'm volunteering was small and unknown few former overseas workers applied. Ergo, there were many available slots and, we, the volunteers-for-so-long (almost a year!) got the remaining slots. I guess it's about patience and a little bit of luck. Well maybe it was more than a little bit of luck that I feel guilty of not being contented with my job....I want to work in big hospital.... Anyways, I vouching more for patience.
  12. hazyblue

    Which careers have the most job openings in this economy?

    True. But you better apply soon before the word gets out if you want to work as a nurse. In my country, military nursing has received tons of applicants and has met their quota. The common military corps is still open though.
  13. Ha ha. I remembered the first time I realized that nursing is such a complex job. I went whining why schools don't mention it. Why is it that they don't prepare us for it? I then understood why employers prefer experienced nurses over new graduates. Now, I still have a lot to learn... True. There is a health care team but it's the nurses who glue them all together. It's the nurses who are most exposed to the patients. Usually, doctor's just interact with their patients. Whatever they have to say to the others (i.e. therapists), it's the nurses who have to relay the information.
  14. 1. Do you love, like or hate your job? Hate it...but only because I want to learn more, I'm just a 2y/o nurse. Oh that and the fact that we don't have a say on our rights... 2. What field of nursing are you in? for some reason I ended up in ER 3. Are you FT, PT, PD? Full time at 40hrs/wk 4. Do you look forward to going to work or dread it? I feel ambivalent about it 5. What gives you the most job satisfaction? Doing the right thing.... Patients remembering me...Right now, hitting that vein properly for I am not a gifted IV nurse. 6. On a scale of 0-10 (0 being least stressful, 10 being most stressful) how stressed does your job make you? hmmm.... 0+10= 10/2 = 5... 5, I guess 7. What causes you the most job stress? Colleagues, doctors, the administration...Apparently, I happen to have lived in a deviant manner so I end up misplaced or misunderstood. Sorry to myself for having lived under the rock prior to nursing. 8. What do you think could make your job better, so you get the most joy and satisfaction out of your work day? Nursing process? xD Basically my problem is the lack of responsibility and learning experiences....since I can't pray for people to get sick because that's a bad thing to do..I'm trying to look for another job. I wish to work at a tertiary hospital. The thing is I'm scared of leaving my job only to find no work. We have a nursing job shortage in here too and a 2y/o nurse isn't considered much experienced...
  15. So has anyone received a call from CMHC? Is CMHC a tertiary hospital? ...I never managed to check the actual site...