You are not alone. My mom used to complain that the wind would blow me away. Since childhood, I have lost and gained elephants in my life. As a nurse, I am always trying to eat well and exercise. But I did not take the time for me. I have had a break or meal in the past that I can count on 1 hand. Eating regular is important. But as nurses we are always going to do it after one more thing I need to do. Also I worked shift work, mostly 11-7 and did not eat right.
Weight Watchers is great because it is a lifestyle change and not a diet. Diets don't work, changes that last do work. The program shows you how to eat regular food in a balance that is healthy. No drinks, pills, shakes, just your regular food that you buy in the supermarket. I have done great with it and it is something that has become part of my life. I can look at a portion and the palm of my hand and know if it is too much or too little. I eat well and I am not hungry. I found a fun way to exercise. I go to the YMCA, not expensive for membership and they have varying hours. I use the pool. There I exercise in the pool and walk. As a nurse, I have enough pressure pounding my body and this is refreshing. I also meet great people while having fun. Remember, we are a work in progress. Like yourself, no matter if you are large or small. If you don't like yourself and have a relationship with your inner being, you will have difficulty succeeding at anything.
Good luck to you and take one day at a time. If you mess up today or eat too much, start over with a new day tomorrow. Don't forget, we are here to support each other. Oh something I just thought of, I know many nurses eat the young nurses alive, but they really don't taste good at all. Laugh, Smile!!!!