Sorry you are having a rough go of it!
You're correct about nursing school teaching us nothing. Nursing school teaches us only how to pass NCLEX! Not how to be fully functioning nurses on the floor, that only comes with time...unfortunately....
You have brought up some very real concerns. Hospital management does expect a lot from floor nurses with not much support in return. It’s an awful way to practice. And unfortunately, the patients suffer the most! But, they don’t care! They only care about their satisfaction scores and the bottom line! Oh... and their magnet status!
Anyhow, glad you’re reflecting on where you want to go in the next phase of your career. It’s not easy to admit that your are not cut out for something. But, I commend you!
Now... to answer your question... a little history on my 10 year nursing career...
I started out as a CNA, I strongly disliked it... too hard physically. Not enough time to spend with the residents providing proper care. I once got reprimanded because I was “too thorough” in my care, by that, I took too long washing their face, helping them comb their hair, brushing their dentures, stuff like that. I was late getting them to breakfast all the time because I wanted them to... uh...you know...feel like a real person! The other aides told me they “never” brushed their residents dentures/teeth or did any of that other stuff because it took “too much time”. I was appalled! Management kinda just looked the other way...
My goal was always to be a “clinic nurse”, I never wanted to be a hospital nurse.
I went and got my LPN. Nursing clinical was hard. We did rotations at LTC and hospitals. I did OK in LTC, but in the hospital, I struggled with time management too! Being too thorough and cautious=too dang slow....which was not good!
My first job as an LPN was at an alcohol detox facility. That was intense! It was hard to rehab the patients, they were far too gone in their disease process and they treated our facility like a bed and breakfast. They weren’t interested in getting better. We had many “frequenters“. I did patient intake(going over med, vitals, history) med pass, wound treatments, insulin injections, stuff like that. They were 12hr shifts on weekends. It was a 50 bed unit (40 males/10 females). I did that on-call for a year or so in addition to the clinic job.
The specialty clinic job I worked at was M-F , 8-5pm. I did patient histories, vital signs, giving allergy shots, allergy testing, phone triage, Rx refills, prior authorizations (for meds not covered by insurance), neb treatments, pulmonary function testing, blood draw, injections for asthma and eczema.
I liked the variety of skills, (different than hospital skills, but still skills). The pace was very manageable. I stayed there for 8 years. I climbed the ranks to nursing supervisor after obtaining my RN and then BSN (I worked there full-time while getting my RN and BSN). Don’t ask me how I managed that, those years were a blur! Lol.
Being a supervisor is not my strong suit. It’s against my nature. I’m not assertive or bossy one bit, so although I was supervisor to only 4 LPNs, it became a difficult role in mostly “conflict management” in addition to my other duties. Which became extremely overwhelming! Everyday it was something new to resolve!
Now, presently, I moved out of state. I work at another specialty clinic in Immunology doing the same things as above (even being a BSN nurse). I am not in a leadership role. I have decided, I never want to be again either.
In the future, I would be interested trying other clinic specialties like GI, cardiology, or OB. But, for now, I’m content.
Like others have mentioned it might be harder to come by a clinic job as many do require some hospital experience. Perhaps, you can stick it out for a year and see if that helps your future prospects!
Anyway, sorry so long. Hope this helps.