How can I relieve my anxiety about going to work? I've been a nurse for 2 years. I used to work in a SNF, which would stress me out before and during work, but not to this extent. Currently I work perdiem in a neuro subacute center, so my anxiety is related to the acuity of the patients, not knowing what will happen, if I'll be able to get everything done, if I'll know how to properly handle a situation, and knowing I have people's lives in my hands. There's constant sends out, admissions, changes of conditions, picky & rude patients, ventilators, very intensive care required.
As it may seem, I'm also not very assertive. I've been working on that though. And I tell myself that it's no different than SNF. But ever since I've started at this place, my anxiety is through the roof. I can't sleep the night before, get nightmares about work, I have trouble eating, my heart rate skyrockets, my hands tremble, I get nauseous. I've even doubted if nursing is for me.
I've tried meditating, breathing techniques, and even when I get through an OK shift, I get anxious about my next shift.
I've tried applying for different areas such as doctor's offices but no luck. Do you guys have other advice on how I can manage this? Thanks.