At the moment, I'm actually leaning towards solar panel installation, and maybe electrician in the future. General maintenance has been another interest of mine. Conservation biology I think is an area I'd really enjoy, but I'm just not in a place where I want to pursue all the schooling for that.
I haven't spoken extensively about it with my therapist in all honesty. My career counselor said she thinks it would fit me when I brought it up, but she also said RHIT might be preferable for me since I would have more solitary work.
The doctor that brought all this up is my general physician, and I think it might be a combination of trying to be helpful and staffing shortages. He brought up the LVN thing a few years ago. And just recently he also mentioned they are hiring when he brought it up. Anyway, I felt a bit awkward having an extensive conversation about it in that setting, I was really just getting blood work results, so yeah.
I think my biggest issues will be being pushed to move too quickly, and overstimulation in the environment. That includes crowded areas. But I also feel that if I have a job that allows me too move around and use my hands more I will be better able to ignore voices and avoid as much stress. It helps to get outside of my head. That's one reason I have a heavier focus on construction related jobs, because they seem to put me more into the world around me. Where areas I can do stuff on computers and work with files, but I'd have to contend with more hallucinations floating around at the same time pestering me and essentially trying to provoke me or make me angry. At worst I might get a little snappish with people, though the tendency is reduced with strangers, and the brief sort of one on ones like in my doctor's office might be perfect as it also gets me out of my head, but I'm not going to have to maintain an extended focus (for lack of a better term I tend to float around lengthy conversation. I am there but flittering in and out, and paying complete diligent attention is impossible.)
Catheter insertion and removal as well as patient bathing are two things that will provide stress, as sex and nudity are two huge things that the voices manifest and driver me off the wall with. Just reading up on the process of inserting a catheter made me squirm and start to second think this as a good option. I might be able to do surgery things if I were free to grimace all I wanted, but of course that's not exactly hospitable to the patients. I am under the impression this would be avoided more in a private practice office. Wounds I am not so concerned about.
Sigh. I'm in a slight tricky situation in regards to really having a productive lengthy conversation with my therapist or psychiatrist. I'm technically medically noncompliant. I have discounted rent which rests on my compliance with doctor's orders. Which has quite frankly scared me out of having any meaningful conversations with them over treatment. I am quite interested in therapy, but insurance doesn't cover multiple agencies, which is fair enough, but doesn't put me in a position to be able to thoroughly work with a professional. My emotions are so caught up in my symptoms, it seems to me any conversation will inevitably lead to getting my meds adjusted. So I avoid talking. I've been trying to utilize CBT to varying success, but I've been suffering from a lack of structure in my life, and in the process I've lost myself a bit. I did better when I put myself on a schedule and so work or not I intend to do that again.
I could probably see an independent person and pay them myself long enough to get a more rounded opinion and discussion of what is going on.
This is the first time in my adult life I've really been prepared and interested in trying to be self sufficient. I'm probably going to stumble a bit as I try to get used to it. And I may well need to just do part time work for awhile and see how it goes.
Actually, this solar panel installation thing is interesting, if I volunteer and complete one full installation, I am open to join their training program. It gets me into the work right away and I can back off if it won't suit me very easily as well. So that seems like a good low risk thing to try out. And it feels secure if it does work out. Pay is good and seemingly low risk of automation replacing it in the near future.