Well, it seems that the Director didn't care for your comments or how they were presented. I sincerely hope you don't get a pinkslip this week.
That said. New Grad positions are pretty intense for anyone, and what I am hearing you say is that you are terrified of seriously ill neo-nates. This may be because of inexperience, but if you feel that you simply do not want the responsibility at this level of care, THAT IS AN HONEST ASSESSMENT OF YOURSELF. NICU is not for everyone. Just as I saw RNs leave the ED over the idea of having to split second save someone's life. You don't know your capacities or limitations until you push the envelope.
The drive you have is troubling. I know. I did it my first year of nursing and what sucks rotten eggs is that you have zero control over your schedule, as you are tagged with a preceptor. Their schedule may suck for your needs. I cannot do five days in a row. Some can. If you are tagged with someone like this....and you need something like 2 on, 1 off, 1 on, three off....then NEGOTIATE THAT and negotiate for a different preceptor if it is still an option.
You feel beleagured on too many fronts. Long drive, preceptor may not be a good fit, new grad in a highly acute setting (neonate nursing is NEVER taught in nursing school. Which is why, in my very humble opinion, NICU nurses should have a strong base in either chrildren's ED, or some other type of specialty that deals exclusively with little people. They are not small adults. It is a very specialized practice and it also takes a particular kind of nurse to thrive there.)
This doesn't even account for any other stressors in your life outside of work.
I would speak to your Director. Apologize or clarify about the comments you may have made that make it feel to her that you, out of the gate, want easy and big money. Neither of which you will find in ANY floor nursing position for a very long time.
Tell her your concerns and come in with A PLAN, workable solutions, to keep your job there. If, of course, this isn't simply aboutnot wanting this level of responsibility, and there is no shame there. If it is just this....then you need to find something less acute. See if there is another unit you could transfer onto at this larger hospital...and do what others have said...find a carpool, do three in a row and stay overnight, etc.
But until you are off of precepting, you are tethered to that person's schedule. And i can tell ya....my original preceptor's schedule sucked badly for me. I loathe dayshift. Absolutely non functional after a few shifts. I hate traffic. I cannot tolerate certain attitudes on dayshift. I like autonomy, no traffic, and having my days to do tuings without fighting everyone on the planet to do them. The personnel is different, more team oriented in my experience, on nights or evenings.
You are not going to orient on a schedule tailored for you. Period. If the facility is one you wish to stay at....find a workable solution with your director so if you do leave, you are not burning bridges or leaving with a bad taste for nursing in general.
The distance is problematic, but i sincerely doubt that this is the root of your difficulty. NICU may simply not be for you. There are plenty of units that have the opportunity to work with highly acute patients, if this is what you want, and maybe adult populations are better suited for you.
Best of luck.