It's okay. You've come to the right place, to vent! <3 <3
Nursing is not for everyone, it's true. However, there are things
that you have to remember, when it comes to nursing:
1) The first couple of years are HARD. For me, the first FEW
years were hard... many ups and downs.
2) Nursing is not ALL, working horrible hours. Furthermore, even
if you find yourself HAVING to continue working night shifts, weekends,
holidays... you can still have a life, a family, a boyfriend/husband. I've
worked mostly night shifts my whole career. I also have two kids and
a husband and a wonderful family life.
3) Again, being a nurse doesn't mean working the crazy hours forever.
There are plenty of nursing jobs out there that allow for more normal
hours. Sometimes you have to "pay your dues" before you can get those
jobs, but you've been a nurse a year now. How about working in
an outpatient surgery clinic? How about OR nursing? Public health.
School health. Doctor's office. Endoscopy.
You'll be okay.
Whatever you decide.