Dear Nurse Beth,
This may be a bit of a read but I have a question about mental health.
I am 20 years old and have been in college since I was 17! I am in a nursing program now and realizing I have a possible borderline personality. I see a definitive 3 personalities within myself, they are all me. I only talk to myself when I'm alone/day dream when alone. It hard to tell how long I've had this because of my ADHD diagnosis, I always seemed to day dream. I thought this occurred with everyone. This doesn't interfere with my social skills or life. I seem to always day dream and talk to myself when I'm alone and not busy for periods over 30 minutes (never in public or at work).
I already work in healthcare and am great with patients.
I have been diagnosed with ADHD and taken all kinds of stimulants since childhood!! I hate them and can function well as a student without them since adulthood. I hate taking medications they have always made me feel depressed and I'm typically extroverted. I don't want a new diagnosis.
I'm very concerned about my career since I've been working so hard to be a nurse and s/s of schizophrenia/borderline have developed after years of working so hard. If they do not interfere should they be reported?
I see the big section on applications asking about inpatient care and worry that it will prevent me from being hired if I am diagnosed. I have worked so hard and care deeply about my future in nursing.
Will this keep me from being successful? Will it limit me from working in trauma or the OR if diagnosed?
Dear Have s/s of schizophrenia/borderline personality,
You have been diagnosed with ADHD and you are self-diagnosing yourself with schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder. These are very different disorders.
If you are having symptoms suggestive of schizophrenia (auditory hallucinations, break from reality) you need to see a doctor as soon as possible for a diagnosis and treatment. However, you are high functioning and most people with schizophrenia are not high functioning without the proper treatment.
You also say you have three different personalities which is not characteristically typical of either disorder. Borderline personality disorder often affects relationships, and makes it hard to regulate your emotions.
You are extroverted, have a job, are great with patients, and are in nursing school. You do sound anxious, but again, you need a diagnosis to see if your fears are grounded.
As far as employment, you do not have to disclose your medical history unless you are asking for work accommodations. Some states do ask for medical history when applying to the board for licensure.
I wish you the best and truly hope you do not have a serious and chronic neuro-biological medical condition.
Author, "Your Last Nursing Class: How to Land Your First Nursing Job"...and your next!
Sep 18, '17
Chill! Many ADHD kids talk and answer themselves! I should know as my oldest child in college does it! There is an anxiety component and a feeling of doubt about yourself. That said get a neuropsychological evaluation. They are great at getting to the bottom of any issue.If you get a diagnosis ask if there is any kind of recommendation for college life. Those reports help you to get accommodations in school like extra time for tests, quiet environment ,note taker etc. All luck and don't be hard on yourself ! You got this! Cheers!
Last edit by spotangel on Sep 18, '17
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